Lack of (s)ex makes me emo!
I'm so emo lately. I don't know why. I don't even have ideas to blog about. I mean to write my own original stuff. Things piss me off. People piss me off. Some people.
I was thinking about my ex a lot. She messages me sometimes, but everytime she does, it makes me even more unhappy. It's just a simple "hi, how are you" message. I struggle to reply and usually it's something very shallow. I just do it because I don't want to get another message that will ask me why I stopped replying. I've been with this girl over 2 years. We've had a long distance relationship, but we had plans, dreams, expectations. But it just didn't work. I'm almost 3 months single now and I feel like crap. If she'd ask me back, I couldn't. If someone new hit on me, I couldn't. I don't even know, if some hottie offered me a one-night-stand, if I'd want to do it. I just don't know why am I in this state with no energy. I've been in relationships for almost 7 years in a row. It wore me out. I'll be 30 next year and I feel like love and relationship will become rational matters for me. I don't believe in romantic love for a while already. Romantic means unreal for me. It means you want to see the person the way he/she is not. Until you realize that... and get disappointed. That's why I wonder how will my next relationship be, if I take a rational approach. Is it even possible? Or will I be in a different state and back to my roots of being a highly emotional guy, that spreads honey around the girl's mouth and makes her melt? Someone who puts his whole heart into something? I don't know and I guess you will be the first one to know here. I'm just so emo. Someone give me a jab or something. Or just kick my ass. My sister has a new boyfriend 2 months after she broke up with the ex. So what am I waiting for? I donno leh...
17 KAFKAESQUE COMMENTS:
you need time to accept yourself before you're ready to give it another try...some people get over things faster than other so only you will know when the time is right.
i reckon you deserve to find Miss Right one day!
August 2, 2009 5:19 AM
@adamantixx, thanks. Seems like if there's something I'm blessed with, it's time and waiting... all life wait wait wait... ah... maybe when I am 46, I am happily married and enjoy the simple things in life :)
August 2, 2009 5:22 AM
You know, I was feeling exactly like you four years ago. I thought he was the one and things just didnt work out. I work a lot, 7 days a week, just so I don't have time to miss him. After two years we broke up, he text me and said he missed me. It made me feel even worse. When I move to Australia I just leave everything behind and start a new life. The first week I was here, I had a fling with a new guy I met. Who knows it's God's will that I'm stuck with him for two years now. Maybe you should change your environment a bit. It helps sometimes.
August 2, 2009 10:55 AM
dun feel bad yea, MKL? my ex of 4 years hardly ever replies me now.. unless he needs my help. I used to be all emo over it but then i realized that ppl tend to move on and forget abt the past - even if it means forsaking a friendship. =/
*bighugs*
August 2, 2009 12:05 PM
LOL. Lack of sex makes EVERYONE emo!
But seriously... I'm also one of those who can't forget someone that easily, even if I was the one to dump them. I guess you just gotta let it be and follow your heart, as cliched as that sounds. I mean, you can't control how you feel about who you meet anyway, right? If someday it feels right..then it is. *shrugs*
August 2, 2009 2:00 PM
Thank you guys for your great advice!
@Jerine, You are so right. I should change the environment, but I'm stuck here for a while, due to several reasons. But I focus on this, it's the 1st thing I'm gonna do, hopefully this year.
@Jessica, yea, people move on. Wish I could move on so easily. I mean, I left a big part of me and my love in that relationship. It didn't work, we had no solutions anymore, so we had to break up I guess. She had to. Sometimes I feel women, when they break up, they are more determined, while men fumble. Or I do.. Thanks for the hugs. I needed it :)
@Nashe^ True, true...
I guess we have a similar charatcer. You are so right: I need to let it be. But you know, some days are good, some are bad. I try not to control myslef, although I feel the urge to do so next time.
August 2, 2009 6:47 PM
Aww, don't be sad for something which has failed. Be happy for things that you have succeeded or stand a chance to succeed. ^^
August 2, 2009 10:58 PM
@wenwen, I'll try to follow your advice :) Thanks.
August 3, 2009 12:04 AM
hi MKL,
thanks for dropping by at my site. sorry to hear bout the status quo. Time will heal things, just give time 'time' :) i was in LDR with my ex for 8 freaking years and it still didn't work out, and I can't believe I'm doing that again >_< hope for the best and prepare for the worst i guess :)
August 3, 2009 9:27 AM
Dude, I know it isn't easy to get back to dating after you spent two years with someone. I was with one guy for five years and when we broke up, I continued with my life and never looked back. I think I am happy now. And even if I am not, I am doing something to achieve that. I hope you do the same. All the best for you, my new bloggy friend.
August 3, 2009 5:17 PM
Nashe almost made me blow coffee out of my nose!
Lack of sex makes Everyone emo! Heheh
That's too funny!
I'd worry about you if you weren't feeling down. That would mean that you have no heart!
The death of a relationship is just like any other kind of loss. You need a period of mourning in order to move on. However, I do think it's time to take control of where this (text) relationship with her is going. Right now she is in control of it. She can make you respond just by sending a text. More than likely it makes you feel better at first, just knowing that she's thinking about you. Then it makes you feel bad because you know that she's not coming back and if she really did care how you are she would be calling you instead of sending you a text.
Stop being polite! Stop making her feel better about dumping you! You need to text her back something like this...
You're not my girlfriend anymore and I really don't have anything to say to you. I'm fine, I'm always fine, I'm always going to be fine. There. Now you don't have to send any more texts. You already have your answer.
Or this...
You dumped me remember? Why are you sending me these stupid text messages? We're not friends. We're not anything anymore.
Or this...
Sorry, but my new girlfriend doesn't like me getting texts from my ex's. Please stop texting me.
And stop being emo! It's annoying me. You're single! You need to start enjoying it. Go out and hit on every hot chick you see. You never know. You just might like being a stud.
August 3, 2009 5:22 PM
@Sharon, 8 years is a long time. Wow.. Ok, I'll try to give time time :)
@Demigoddess, yea, I need to reach that state of mind where I don't look back... I'm single 3 months now, somehow still adjusting to the situation. But I'll try my best. Thanks, my new (pinay) bloggy friend ;-)
August 3, 2009 5:28 PM
@Tricia, Nashe is funny, yea. She always makes me smile.
As for your advice: Thanks. I wasn't emo before, it's actually the first time since the break up. I know you are right, but responses like the one you suggested are just not me. I always think I need to be above anger, be polite and live on. We didn't argue when we broke up. It was very civil, we both knew what will happen.
I just need to stop dwelling on the past. Your comment really helped, thanks. I'll just look forward.
August 3, 2009 5:37 PM
ok I realise that this comment might not make sense since the post is like almost 4 months old but here goes anyway :)
transition takes time and there's no way of justifying right or wrong when it comes to affairs of the heart. Some ppl would say things take time but to the rest jumping right into the next one would be better. Do your own things on your own terms ;)
I'm sure you'll find your true love - you are too much of an old romantic (from what i've read) to stop believing in romantic kinda love ;)
November 11, 2009 10:33 PM
@Princess HaniRose Well, I love it when people read and comment on my old posts :) But I'm way over this, it's now 3 months later and I'm very happy :) You can check some of my latter posts ;) But you are true what you said, I'm an old school romantic, indeed :P
November 11, 2009 10:35 PM
haha I'm sorry :) I just stumbled upon your blog today hence the whole going though archives and whatnot ;) no more useless comment! Promise! :)
November 11, 2009 10:40 PM
@Princess HaniRose Oh, no, don't say sorry. I'm happy you commented and it's a reminder for me not to fall into another emo phase. Please, you're welcome to comment on any post, any time. I appreciate your comments. :)
Cheers!
November 11, 2009 10:43 PM
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