I feel like a shrink and a patient at the same time
(by Stephen Wright)
I feel melancholic. I don't know if I really am, but it's weird. My mood keeps changing and I seem to be in an uncontrollable state where I don't know how the next day will really be. I can't really say that anything bad has happen or that I experienced something very disappointing. Maybe it's my hormones running wild? I have no clue. It's all in my mind and my perception. It's those days where you question your own actions and actions of others, then you overanalyze them and in the end, you know nothing more than you did before. I used to chat with many people lately and I felt like a shrink and a patient at the same time. I'm happy when people come to me and seek my advice or just need a listener. Then again, it triggered a release of my own emotions and I think I shared too much than I usually would. I guess I'm very sensitive lately. That's obvious from the last posts I wrote. I'm totally not into politics or intellectual things now. A while ago, I would be riled at US politics, wondering how come people call Obama a Nazi, while he just tries to reform a healthcare system that's obviously unfair and unsustainable. But now, I'm like whatever. I feel like so many people around me have personal issues and we're all somehow becoming shrinks and patients, we all know how to help others, but we have poor solutions for ourselves. Nevertheless, talking about it helps. Maybe not immediately, but things are certainly better than they were before you pour out your heart. Thanks again to all my recent shrinks and it was also a pleasure to be a shrink for you.
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21 KAFKAESQUE COMMENTS:
You are very perceptive. I think you have expended a bit too much energy in a variety of distracting directions, you now need a bit of energy for yourself. It's time to spoil yourself, pamper yourself a little; you can't give out what you haven't got, you will completely drain yourself. Step back and take time out for you!
August 26, 2009 3:56 AM
@ZACL: Thank you for the kind words. You are so right. I will try my best to relax a little. But I really like to help people who come to me. But I have to find the right balance.
August 26, 2009 4:12 AM
awesome, and I thought I was sensitive ;)
August 26, 2009 6:02 AM
@Jamaipanese: These days sensitivity is a necessity. I can't help it, it's who I am :)
August 26, 2009 6:12 AM
hey new comment box! :P
aiks.. don't go male PMS-ing! and remember, only you are responsible for your own happiness ;)
August 26, 2009 5:33 PM
@Sharon: Male PMS-ing, hahaha.. That cracked me up. No, it's not that at all, don't worry. Yes, I know, I'm responsible for my own happiness. I feel like your patient now :)
August 26, 2009 5:40 PM
I definitely feel like this a lot, my constant mood swings terrify me at times but I guess I should just control myself better sometimes. It's normal though, we're twenty something women after all :)
August 26, 2009 11:03 PM
@Adhari: Well, my mood swings are more frequent now that I am single again for a while. As for 'we the twenty something women'... I am a twenty something guy :P I guess my mood swings do appear feminine a bit, hehe.
August 26, 2009 11:22 PM
I think I know just how you feel... Being a Swede and all - feeling melancholic is a national trait...
Anna
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August 27, 2009 2:02 AM
@Anna: Ok, I have brothers and sisters in this.. so good to know. Tak so mycket, syster från Sverige :)
August 27, 2009 3:02 AM
yes, it's easier to understand things once we've put our private thoughts into words even if a solution is still nowhere to be seen.
August 27, 2009 4:08 AM
@adamatixx: I totally agree. Talking or writing helps. That's why almost everybody is a blogger these days. We all have issues :)
August 27, 2009 4:15 AM
I won't be embarrassed to admit to the blogoverse that I have become one of your patients. Thanks for always trying to cheer me up, MKL. You have been so patient with me and I appreciate that.
Thanks, my dearest friend and shrink.
August 27, 2009 11:45 AM
@The Demigoddess: I never feel like a shrink with you, but more like a friend, because you are very smart and you know the answer yourself. You just need a listener. I'm happy to be one for you.
August 27, 2009 10:25 PM
your perceptions are awesome :)
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August 27, 2009 11:17 PM
I have those days. One moment I'll be anxious and worried and then the next everything will be just peachy. It's all about positive thinking. I've trained myself to talk myself out of bad emotions or thoughts. Seems to work...
August 28, 2009 3:31 AM
@Americanising Desi: Thanks!
@talesfromabarstool: Yea, I know what you mean. I do that, too. Most of the time it works. Sometimes it don't. That's why I blog.
August 28, 2009 3:36 AM
I am emotional like that too. You are not alone.
August 28, 2009 9:58 PM
@The Envoy: Glad to hear that I am not the only guy with this 'disorder', hehe.
August 28, 2009 10:04 PM
I call those kind of days Atwood days... for one of my favorite poets, Margaret Atwood.
"You fit into me
like a hook and an eye
A fish hook
An open eye"
It just means that it's one of the days when nothing seems to go as expected. Not necessarily good or bad, just life doing its thing. It can be frustrating sometimes.
That doesn't sound like melancholy, it sounds like apathy. Probably the change in season. As the season changes so will your mood. Things will settle down soon. Just wait and see.
September 2, 2009 5:11 PM
@Tricia: I hope you're right. It's hard to find the proper description of someone's mood, because sometimes it's a whole mix of moods... I know.. it'll pass. Thanks.
September 2, 2009 5:14 PM
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